A Short Story
It was a little over two years ago that I returned to my home town after many years' absence. Walking down my old street, I stopped outside my childhood home, noticing the For Sale sign.
On the outside, at least, it was mostly the same. Money had been tight when we lived there, and the paintwork wanted redoing, the pebble-dash had chipped off, exposing the brickwork. Now, the new owners had restored the old Victorian terrace to its former glory, no longer the shame of the street.
I gazed up at all three floors, remembering. I felt a longing, a pining, to spend a few minutes in my place, to experience a small taste of my former happiness, to feel, just for a moment, that simple childhood innocence.
I was only 11 when we'd moved. I wasn't really sure why; money, I think. It was all very sudden, and I didn't deal with the change well. I liked stability, familiarity. Needed it. I'd spent a lot of time in my room, my safe haven. I'd never been able to get emotionally close to anyone. I had siblings, cousins, but I could never relate to them all that well. There was always this gulf between us; I didn't understand their ways, they didn't understand mine. If something upset me, I would take to my room, the one place I could truly be myself, where I was never judged, never made to feel like a misfit. It was my own space, my sole friend who rejoiced with me, learned with me, wept with me.
When we moved, I had to share a room with my sister, she took it over, it was her place, and I was a stranger once more. I no longer had the comfort my room had given me, I couldn't deal with negative feelings well anymore. They said I had behavioural issues, and took me to doctors.
Now I was back. Welcome home, old friend, the house seemed to say. I felt an ache in my heart. It would not be on the market forever, I would likely never return here again. Would I want to spend the rest of my life regretting losing the chance?
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